You better think of something, think of something real fast, I ain't stopping you anymore...

So recently, I had an epiphany if you will, and I decided to start living for myself. I had fallen into this rut where I was living for someone else and I really don't know how I fell into this but I finally decided to change it. Once I made this decision, I immediately felt better. I was holding onto this for so long and I didn't want to let go because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to have a life if I did. But, I felt so so so so much better afterwards! Its amazing how cutting something (or someone) out of your life can be such a relief. Other things in my life have already started falling into place. Like once I had decided to let go of the bad...the rest left too.

Also, I have been learning to love my internship more everyday. I have been giving such a great opportunity to meet so many people and make so many connections. I need to take advantage of it while I can.

And I'm recovering from a great weekend. I had the most fun that I have had in a while and I got to hang out with some people that are pretty amazing. Hopefully this upcoming weekend will be even better!

It finally clicked.

Today, I went to the weekly devotional lunch at my workplace. I have been going with my aunt since I started and I have really enjoyed it but today it just clicked...

Of course, with it being St. Patrick's Day, the speaker talked about St. Patrick and his life story. Now, he was the son of a clergyman and the grandson of a pastor. So he came from a very religious family. But despite his upbringing, he didn't have a close relationship with God. St. Patrick was taken away by the Irish when he was only 16 to be enslaved for 8 years. While he was enslaved, he was forced to live in the woods tending sheep alone. Only after these long 8 years of slavery did his relationship with God grow. He had to go through the hard times to have a great relationship with Him and to restore his trust in God.

I finally understood what I have to do. I have always had a belief in God. I believe in Him and I have faith in Him. I need to work on my trust of God. I need to trust Him without question. Children do this all the time. There is no question. They just trust Him and know that He will take care of them. That is what I need to work on...not my faith and belief but my trust in God.

Anyways, also since it is St. Patrick's Day... I booked my flight to Ireland today! Get excited! :)

Mass confusion.

Why do people never say what they think? I don't always say what I'm thinking...sometimes it is a good thing too, but why can't you say something to someone about their attitude without them getting angry or upset? If it is the truth and you have a legitimate reason for saying it then whats the problem? Yeah the truth hurts...but so do a lot of other things in life. I mean, it seems like as soon as you get something that you want, something else comes from left field and completely knocks you off course. So, why can't people just accept the truth? And why can't I tell it to them...